Children The Joy and the Misery

I love my children withh all my heart adn woudl so lay down my life for any of them ....now that i have said that... OHHH WOW do they try me.... they fight until everyoen is in tears...s ay hatefull hurtfull things to each other.... it kills me... i have tried everything adn i am out of answers.... Lily does nothign but whine about everything and throws fits now on a regular basis... When seh doesnt get what she wants its liek i ahve a 2 year old again... and i dont knwo why.. she doesnt get her way ... i dont give in to it... it makes me mad and she ends up crying and in her room.... paitence is NOT somethign i do well at... guess that is why i am inthis situation... to learn it... Grinz.... chilren the greatest joy in the world adn the biggest challenge!

Evil Who Me???

Raw evil score: 15.56%

Manoa Falls

Just had a family hike to Manoa falls...threw a bamboo rainforest.. its was nice a little warm got to sweatin.. kids didnt complain too much which wasa GREAT change... got to see some beautiful flowers adn hear a stream again... it was lovely if i could have jsut sat by the running water i woudl have for hours... it makes me feel sooo happy ... the breeze blowing through the leaves... the birds chirping... makes me think back to how hawaii must have been before all the people moved here.... peaceful lovely way to spend a sunday afternoon!

I am invisible!

So if any of you have seen that tv comerical you know what i mean... laffin...And if you are a mom you sooo know this feeling... We are the invisible work force that keep our families moving and revolving in their happy little world. MOM WHERES MY SHOE... the invisble hand picks it up off floor and hands ti to child... HONEY HAVE YOU SEEN MY KEYS... the keys float off dresser adn into thehand of the frantic spouse... I'M HUNGRY... the plate floats to the table.... I AM OUT OF UNDERPANTS... the laundry basket floats to the bedroom!
That is how i felt today... guess i was throwing myself a pity party although i have no reason to do so.. i am healthy, my kids are great.... hubby is on SHORE duty!
So i got up today not feelign 100% had a headache hangover... i got kids ready for school lunches made everyone cleane dup adn homework in their bags, got jaum up for work, took kdis to school came home and took care of a few little things.. cuddled with linus for about 10 mins... then i went upstairs put all teh kdis laundry away picked up the glasses that arent supposed to be there but were anyhow... then i made my bed, cleaned up my bathroom, vaccuumed the upstairs...scooped teh kitty box into my new littler locker (which is the bes tthing ever) came down stairs started a load of laundry... adn then started to clean the craft room... got a few things put away... its about 50% done... but i was thinking as i was walking aroudn doign these things... who would do them if i didnt... who would wash the clothes.. i ahve gone on strike before and been sick and i knwo that it takes me weeks to ge tthe house back to where it was.. and it kills me when my hubby says things liek yeah well its in ourhosue is probably dirty... days liek today are when i feel invisible....

Hormones

I really wish that hormones didnt have so much control over me... one day i am great the next day iwoudl like to rip someones head off and throw it off the nearest cliff... with no control of my own! frustrates me and my poor family also.. have tried birth control to keep this under control doesnt work.. have to keep on antidepressants to keep them sort of under wraps.. sometimes i dont liek being a woman... i get so upset of the littlest things... even when i am trying so hard not too... but whats a girl to do... but keep on truckin?€

Teacher work days

Oh the joys of teach work days... the kids didnt want to go to bed last night cause they didnt have school today so they faught us... now they get up this am and i have my monday stuff todo... normal stuff i do every monday laundry cleaning, errands.. the usual... well this is an inconvience to their idea of what we shoudl be doing.... sighs i HAVE TO get these thigns done.. like pay rent.... adn send in payemtns and papers to ge tmy mooshu kitty here to hawaii... so iFINALLY get them all ready to go... adn theywhine adn complain... adn fight and touch each other adn she did this...no i didnt... i am tryign to ignore the behavior hopign it will jsut go away but no... we got to bank ge tthe checks they are ok then have togo to ups store..a dn they ahve to touch everything adn poke at each other all the while i am tryign to deal with the nice guy helping me... dont touch that, get over here, ok sign where sir? lily get off there, jake stop touching that... SCREAMSSSS it was liek taking a group of monkeys to the store... i thought as they got older it was easier.. so iguess i am gonna have to REteach them proper store behaviors since they seem to have forgotten! shakes head.... not like we dont og shopping enough.... adn when it doesnt suit their plans theymake life miserable for us.. which is not right...
the other day i only had one mor eplace to go adn they all said AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW we dont wanna... so i invented 4 more places to go jsut to torture them.... i am the evil mommmy... i WILL win this fight! stay tuned for more insanity!

more wedding fun

Ok so nwo planning a wedding.. so we do things a lot backwards.. most peopel do it BEFORE they are married for 14 years and ahve 3 kids... laffin yeah so i am doign it now and it is much different than i had thought.. since there are lots of things that i dont ahve to do since i am alreadymarried like registering for gifts, adn planning showers.... we arent have attendants except my children so taht is another hting i didnt have to worry about. Yesterday my sweet husband took me to meet the cake lady adn we tasted cakes and picke dout our flavor and what we wanted it to look like! I can wait.. adn WOW cakes can be expensive... but hey at least i dont have to stress and make it myself... taht wouldnt be fun.. with all i have to do... i have left some of the planning up to Jaum like getting a photographer, food and all that... ig ot my invites in the other day and am addressing them gotta print out directions and hotel info and stick that in there then mail them out and hope someone wants to come and share our day.... and if nto we will have a great time wiht ourselves.... I knwo thatmy grandma and cousin are comgni for sure adn so are my mom and dad as soon as i buy their tickets.... and i am sure hopign that my baby sister can find themoola to get here too! so we ownt be alone!! smiles.... so there is my update!